Today I bought two new fish.
Nicholas and Copernicus.

Last night I had a dream.

I was going to some sort of private school, and so everyone was wearing uniforms and everything, and we were all taught to just do what the staff (they seemed less like teachers, and more like babysitters) told us to do. I went through many days of school, just doing the same things everyday, and just not really thinking about it. It's just how it was, I did my math work, I ate lunch, I smiled politely at passerby-- you know, that whole bullshit thing. Well, pretty soon this boy started showing up in a lot of my classes, and during lunches, and assemblies and stuff. And everyday he would show up in all of these places, and he would start yelling about how unjust the school was, and he yelled all about how fucked up everything that they were doing to us was. No one in the school really listed to him though, he was just there, screaming. And everyone just kind of thought that he was a loser, and that we shouldn't really pay much attention to him. I started noticing that while he was making his speeches, he would smile at me, like knowing that I was really listening to him or something. Well, after several days of this, we were all walking to an assembly or something, and I asked him if he wanted to get some coffee with me or something, and he said yes. So we walked to the mall, and we sat down to some coffee, and we talked a lot about everything, and then walked around the mall, continuously talking about all of these pretty intense things. We eventually wandered into the parking lot, and there was this half-created under construction water park kind of thing built there, and so we walked around it, still talking about everything, and we started like going down the broken waterslides and stuff, just messing around. And then I don't remember what happened after that, but I remember that he got really hurt, and like disappeared and I didn't see him for a while. And I went to school and everyone was like making fun of me because I was "going out" with him (I think it was one of those unofficial things), but I didn't even give a shit. Everyone just fucking hated me, and talked a lot about how stupid I was for loving him, and how full of bullshit we both were, but I really just didn't care. I went to his house to see him, and he said something like, "We were almost in love, and then I fucked it up..." and I said, "You ain't seen nothin' yet" or something.

And then I woke up.

S'OKAY
Today's been a real good day, I think. =] 

I'm going to keep it to the highlights of the day:

The highlight of school: was drawing a picture of Mr. Cady riding a magical Narwal through the sky with rainbows and stuff with some fatty markers during Math. And then during the History party I gave the picture to Mr. Cady and he said that he was going to hang it on his fridge at home! Hahahaha I'm so excited. XD

The highlight of after-school: I was walking home from the LHS ground breaking ceremony, and as I was walking home from that I hear a car honk, and I look over, and it was The Joe Mah, and he gave me a ride home. Hahaha. Yesss.

=D Today's been goooood.

The only bad part: my friend Sam asked me out, and I told him "I don't know," just because I was nervous and wanted to get out of the situation, I guess, and so now next time I talk to him I have to tell him no. I should've just said no in the first place so that I wouldn't have to be like, "UUUUUUUUUUGGGH NOW EVERYTHING'S AWKWARD FJDKLFDSF PFTTTT"

 



But yeah! Schoooool's almost out!

I feel like screaming!
I feel like jumping!
I feel like dancing!
I feel like blowing bubbles!
I feel like eating a hundred chocolate chips!
I feel like watching trashy British television!

Yesss. I am going to do all of this!
And then at seven I'm leaving for Canadaaaa!

List seven songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

01. All Together Now - The Beatles
02. Give Peace A Chance - John Lennon
03. Little Yellow Spider - Devendra Banhart
04. The Golden Road - Grateful Dead
05. Rainy Day Women - Bob Dylan
06. The Ballad Of John and Yoko - The Beatles
07. Feelin' Groovy - Simon and Garfunkle

I tag everybody!

went to folklife again today-- and it's officially not nearly as fun sober. but it was still pretty good. :]
i found some fucking awesome sunglasses in my basement. they make me look like john lennon hahaha.
i think that i'm going to get crazy fucked up and write everything down sometime. 'cause i'd like to remember all of the things that i thought. because on saturday i explained to kaila how to obtain world peace, but i don't remember what the fuck i said, and i guess according to her it didn't actually make any sense. but i still want to know what i said-- who knows, it could be totally brilliant. hmmmmmmm school tomorrow. i'm completely dreading school, but this one kid that i may or may not like a little bit is back from the band trip, so i guess i'm excited to talk to him all about that shit. fuck i officially have the saddest ass lovelife known to mankind. it's just depressing.

today! my mom picked me up and we went to my great-grandma pederson's memorial service, which was actually really nice. i talked to this guy that was there who was obviously this huuge stoner and he was hilariously awesome, and he kind of looked like an older john lennon-- and his name was rief, but everyone calls him riefer. YES IT IS PRONOUNCED LIKE REEFER. what a cool fucking name hahahah. anyways so everyone was really cool and it was all really cool and i liked it. even if it was a funeral. 
after that me and my mom and my cousin ingrid went out for lunch, where i learned that i don't like mediteranean food. 
and then we went to a little shop and i bought a button that says "i march to a different accordion" or something and i liked it.
anyways after that my mom started to drive me home and we were both like "WHY AM I GOING HOME?!" and so we went to my house, i ran in and grabbed some clothes, and then i jumped back in the car and we started driving to my mom's house, 'cause that's where i very properly should be. 
i guess that tomorrow we're going to go down to folklife again and i'm going to bring my little sister and we're all going to dance and take pictures and stuff. :) i'm excited.
i wonder if folklife will be any different sober--

anyways yes! now i'm burning thousands of cds. it's intense.

today was so fucking amazing.
this is the overview: 
+ shelli and i got down there around noon or one-ish (something like that) and hung out with brien and amanda forever. and then kaila and hailey showed up! and we walked to the trees and smoked waaaaay too much weed.
+ i was more fucked up than i've ever been before. i'm pretty certain of it.
+ while i was high i called sabine! and she picked up the phone and we had amazing conversations. shit it was soo nice to hear her voice. :) i started crying really hard as soon as i hung up the phone and amanda gave me huge hugs and told me that it was going to be all right. so did brien and shelli and kaila. :) man oh man i love them. anyways, spite their efforts, i couldn't stop crying for like forty-five minutes. oh man, i was so fucked up-- just walking around with the hugest pupils in the world, dancing around to the music, thinking everyone was in slow-motion so i had to go the same speed (which basically just meant that i was dancing around everywhere really slowly haha), convinced that i was in another dimention, and that the sky was made out of cubes----  crying my eyes out.
+ i was pretty fucked up. but it was sooo much fun after i stopped crying.
+ talking to sabine was fucking amazing. i'm so happy that i decided to call her. :)
+ anyways, so we walked around forever and ever and i ran into ariel, which was super nice.
+ we left around six-thirty or so and headed home.
+ and darby was on the same bus as me and shelli on the way home! it was crazy cool. 8)

yeah man today was amazing. a lot more stuff happened too, but i'm too fucking exhasted to write it all down.

but gosh it was so nice talking to sabine. even if it did make me cry a lot. it was really nice. and i'm sooooo excited for her to come home. <3

shit, today was so good! :D

i drank a lot of rum in math and so i was pretty fucking far gone most of the day.
and it was hilarious-- i think that i said some weird things to mr. cady though.
just in case you're interested:

these are what i call news updates:

+ today i smoked my last cig. aaand so now i've quit. hooray me!
+ i've also decided that i'm only going to smoke the pot and drink the alcohol on 'special occassions' instead of being a dirty little stoner drunk. you know. so special occassions are like folklife and erin's birthday and stuff. :D 
+ i'm dying my hair back to my natural color. and then i'm growing it out real long. and i'll look stupid. but that's what i want to do anyways.
+ i should probably do my math homework someday. but not today.
+ i've been feeling hopelessly lonely lately. how gross.
+ i think that les miserables is my favorite thing in the entire world.
+ and now i am off to write a letter to the beautiful sabine! it will probably say basically what i just wrote. but it will be phrased differently and i will use many different colors of pens and i'll talk about a lot of other things too. =] 
+ there's this one thing that i'm afraid of telling anyone. i can't even bring myself to tell my therapist. it's stupid.
+ there are a lot of other things to talk about too. but you know fuck. i'm going to go write a letter about it. >:D